Paula Abdul admits to a pain pill addiction. It had long been speculated that Paula may be taking more than the prescribed amount of pills, and finally she opens up in an issue of Ladies’ Home Journal about her trials and tribulations. Paula says she could have killed herself.

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During a tour back in the 1980s Paula says she was an old school professional, via usmagazine.com. She never wanted anyone to see her sweat. As a result, Paula overextended herself and used a combination of pain killers and chinese medicine to help. An addiction soon followed.

“I couldn’t cancel my tour. I didn’t want anyone to count me out,” she says in June’s Ladies’ Home Journal. “I tried to keep everything hush-hush.” By 2005, she was diagnosed with “reflex sympathetic dystrophy syndrome,” a chronic neurological disorder that causes severe pain. It resulted in teeth-chattering and shingles-like lesions. Abdul says she wore a patch that delivered a pain medication about 80 times more potent than morphine and took a nerve medication to relieve her symptoms. Sometimes, she adds, she also took a muscle relaxer.”

Good lord. So that was the free entertainment we saw on American Idol! Makes perfect sense. Thankfully, Paula is clean, sober, and “looking for love” now.

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