Tila Tequila is addressing her suicidal meltdown. Tila tweeted that she wanted to kill herself on Monday. Very Sad and worrisome but it looks like Tila is having a much better perspective on the whole thing. Tequila wrote on GlobalGrind.com assuring her fans and friends that she’s getting help for her suicidal thoughts.

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According to E! Online via MTV, Tila tweeted (on her site that has now been protected),

“I am going to kill myself cuz I don’t want to life in a world where its filled with IGNORANCE! which majority of you ARE! & racists! As dark descends into my world … I drown at night, without a fight. One last breath before I go. Don’t mourn me world, I will die slow.”

In Tila’s Global Grind Post, things are looking up:

Post titled “Suicide Is Not the Answer,” “I just wanted to take a moment to address all of my fans and the people I care about regarding my recent public suicidal meltdown online,” she wrote. “I don’t usually issue statements to address rumors, but since suicide is a very serious subject, I felt that it is my responsibility to come clean and speak out about it, as emotional and personal as it is. ”

“I am a bit embarrassed and ashamed that the whole world witnessed my very public meltdown about being suicidal, but at the same time, I know that I shouldn’t be,” she continued. “Had I not spoken out for help, my loved ones would not have seen my cry for help, and I probably wouldn’t be alive today. Had I not done what I did that night, I most definitely would have made the biggest mistake of my life, that I can never undo.”

Tila says her depression started earlier this year when she was hospitalized after an alleged fight with her then boyfriend Shawne Merriman.

Tila finished the post on an upbeat note:

“We all must remember that tomorrow comes after the dark, and everyday is a new day! After the storm passes, the sun will always be there to shine on you once again! We have only one life to live, so why not give it a try? It takes a stronger person to fight through the hard times than take the easy way out!!!! DON’T DO IT!!!!!!!!! God Bless!” – via MTV

Stay strong girl!

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